hum your heart out little hummingbird.

you do all you can to let them know who you are.

you break you neck just so that you can see them smile.

you ask how high when they say jump.

you give them your last, your all, and your everything.

you dont live for yourself, you live because they want you around.

your not happy where you are, i can read you.

you just wish you can break out of all the chains they force you to stay in.

you wish you could just make yourself happy for once.

you wish you could make them all go away.

you wish you didnt have to please anyone anymore.

you wish you could tell them all to just fuck off and leave you alone.

well come here and take my advice, DO IT.

do what makes you happy, live for you and for no one else.

hum your heart out little hummingbird (:

my happynessssss.

im happier & happier with each day that passes, man i swear. ive never had it like this here :-*

just proud that its her

big homie big homieeeeee, cuh means the world to me, point blank period no questions asked. i swear she teaches me so much, from boys to dealing with my parents, shes forever there, & cuh is a straight thug, thats where i get it from.

i look like ladybug, walk like ladybug, talk like ladybug, so i must be a ladybug, junior ladybug that issssss 8-)

just call me LadyBug Deuceeeeeee :-*

082409 :-*

dates amazeeeee me ;]

just like magnets,

were so opposite but the same at the same time, its the most amazing feeling in the world to know that there is someone there who you can connect with, just tell absolutely everything to. sit up & talk all day every day about everything. were on the same page, im almost head over heels. if were supposed to be we'll be. & im more than sure were going to be :-) :-*

i love you.

has someone told you they loved you today?

well if not, i love you

& i promise to love you when no one else does :]

big homie, big cousin, i love you thirdddd

KALAN ! omg my freakin psychiatrist, my guidance counselor. i swear i love him more than life itself. he's one of the most intelligent & influential people in my life, he tells me what i need to hear & not just what i want. your absolutely wonderful big cousin & you deserve all the things that come along with that. i never wanna see you go back in that horrible place with those horrible people. i love you way to much, me & rosa cant copee, lol.

ohh & before i forget, the other boy hasan, definately one of the coolest kids ive ever met, EVER :]

fruit roll ups & late night textss ;]

bijon tarray callum :]

my knight in shining armor, the one who put hold on the tears & the heart ache, the one who eased my pain. a shoulder to lean on, you gave me someone who cared & would listen whenever i needed it. your absolutely amazing, & im definately one hundred percent in love with everything you say & everything you do. your the epitome of greatness. your what every boy should strive to be. your smart, you have a future, a good head on your shoulders, & not to mention whats under your shirt ;] haha seriously im happiest when im talking to you & im more than glad that i met such an incredible guy like you. i love you with all my heart & so much moreee <3

& i decided to take back everything including the promises.

i sat & thought about it, long & hard, over & over. & i chose to leave you behind, all the memories, all the smiles, even the promises. people cant promise forever can they? forever? has anyone ever even seen forever. when does forever start & when does forever end? forever doesnt end does it. but all good things come to an end right? so does that mean the bad things stay forever, who would even want that? forever changes from when you say it to when i say it. well im not quite sure when this forever thing was supposed to end but i gotta end it today. july sixth, two thousand nine. eight twenty four. our forever is done.

"i aint lookin for love but if you lookin for lust then that can be us"

that was said by one of my favorite people on this earth,

its also the best thing i think ive ever heard. who else beside kalan could come up with something that tightttt. this love thing aint working for no one right about now. lust, lust, lust. thats it, thats all. stop jumping the gun cuh. think about it all first.

-teeeee :]

_DTA.

i cant help it, im addicted

i admit this now

im hooked, i cant let go

i cant do this for

much longer, its beginning

to be seen & i

dont want the world to know

how i am really

uncontrollably in love with

everything you

say & everything you do.

when the world

finds out i swear its not guna

be good at all

they'll know my secret, they'll

know your secret

they'll have something to say

i wont be able to

handle it, im not weak & im not

scared im just not

ready to face them, i dont want 

them to see me

like this, im really vulnerable

my guards down

and they'll take advantage i know

i know them 

they're horrible people and i trust

NO ONE <3

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-chester :]

moooovin' on.

i feel like theres alot of things i need to leave behind me & never EVER go back to. i tend to have trouble letting go of whats already gone & it shouldnt be a struggle to keep you near, yeah i know that, but when the going was good, it was damn good. i sit up & think "damn when the sudden change" but what can i do? yeah it sucks but i think this is a chance to break out of bad habits. my habits of not realizing that whats done is done. im tired of fighting to keep you here with me. this all just makes no sense. & i personally dont want this anymore.

una masss :]

i made this for a kid who means the world to me named danny speech, i met him at burroughs & although i must admit ive been semi-mad at him lately, i still love him which is something i didnt get to tell him before our falling out. but this picture really showed my apprecitation for the great hugs that i got from him. & i swear i didnt only do this because he was my only friend at burroughs. i did it cause he has a place in my heartt. i love you "burroughs danny" :]

friday, six twenty one pm

let me start off by saying baby im sorry, sorry for all the wrong ive done to you. im sorry for hurting you. im sorry for lying. im sorry for telling you sorry right now, i know how you hate that. im sorry for the arguments, im sorry for neglecting you. im sorry about the route were going down now. im sorry for all these sudden changes im putting you threw. im sorry for changing you. im sorry for not changing into exactly what you wanted. im sorry for the i love yous. im sorry for requiring all the attention that i do. im sorry for the other guys. im sorry for confusing you. im sorry for my attitude. im sorry for your attitude. im sorry for those pictures. im sorry i couldnt satisfy your needs. i swear im sorry, im sorry, im sorry. but i really still love you.

-chester, i cant help it.

this one was made for you.

dear heart is what it says. 

i dont think i give that "thing" enough credit. i mean look at all hes done for me. i would never know love or heartbreaks. so thanks :]

-thats chester

the beginning of the world as i know it now

i think everything originates from something. i honestly do think im the person i am today because of my past friends & my past experiences. but for me i think its mainly because of that little school called olive vista. mann i swear my seventh grade year changed my whole life. between, the stupid shit i did, new friends, old friends, school. shit it was pretty much a big deal when you think about it. i find it funny how my group, our group is still somehow connected. theres me & rosa who are the best of friends to this day. rikki who although were not what we used to be are still in contact. eric , errol, & tyrone who we still manage to function with every now and thenn. its crazy that after three years we can still deal with eachother. & take it from me relations & relationships have definetly changed. some for better & some for worse. but in the end i must admit as mad i was to go to that school, im kinda glad i did. it was an emotional roller coaster. it was where i had my happiest & my saddest moments. trouble just seemed to follow whenever things were going good. but thats life right? that was lifeee at its best. i'll never know anything like that ever again.

i dont think i'll ever be ready

& aLL i ever wanted was for us to be happy & enjoy it . 

i never wanted reLationship just reLations & then 

things turned to this. we hit it off & things feLL 

to the ground so what do we do now. 

pick up where we Left off or turn our backs on 

something we never knew.

j b h s

john burroughs high school , is pretty much almost 

done with . today was the last day i wake up at 5:30 

for a whileeee thank god . no more crowded hallways 

& staircases . but it was kinda fun i must admit . im 

guna miss the seniors so much . & i wish i would make 

ammends with those that im currently not speaking to 

but my pride just wont let me . sophomore year has been 

a rollercoaster , now movin on to bigger , better things . 

here i go with my junior year & stuff ?

_032709 :]

my baby , my baby . joshua allen mcclendon . my boyfriend as of march twenty seventh two thousand nine . ohh the things me & this boy go through . the happiness he gives me is absolutely beyond words but so is the sadness & the anger -_- but honestly through it all , ups & downs , i love him . hes the highlight of each day . we can sit on the phone for what seems like forever & talk about absolutely nothing . man oh man . besides the arguing & the fighting i know where your heart is & you know where mine is . i love you & i hope this is my happy ending .




-chesters in loveeeee <3>

i guess i'll see you next lifetime

"what am i supposed to do when i want you in my world , how can i want you for myself when im already someones girl , i guess i'll see you next lifetime "

goodness gracious , story of my life . i've never been in a more complicated situation ever . i dont wanna wait but i dont wanna choose either . cant i just have em all ?!

-playa playa pimpin chester ;]

blogspot blogspot blogspot

sooo , i decided to find out the greatness of this blogspot thing . its always guna be great to just have somewhere to write down all the things in my head other than aiming my friends who are less interested . so uh , hi nice to meet you im chester . theres really not much else to say abour me but that , ohh yeah i only fukcs with two bitches & there not my friends there my mains & i keep em close cause there not with the bullshit , point , blank , period .

-yours truely , chester slim